panic

I have no idea what just happened- Alex suddenly dropped out. We did our job, hope he did his.

When you can't run you crawl, and when you can't crawl you find someone to carry you.


I need to go home.

backdoor

Anyone who's expecting me around 10 should get me on Skype at:
miriam.a.robinson
around that time.

worry worry worry

I guess I blog a lot more under stress. Not only has he not picked up his phone to me in the last 48 hours, today Alex didn't show up to work and I think he's been fired. Randall wouldn't say anything except "He's not coming in anymore." in a voice that made me regret that I'd asked. So when I got off work I went round to his flat and he didn't answer the bell. I even got inside the building and pounded on his door- he didn't answer. After phoning basically everyone I know I finally got his flatmate's number, but Simon's gone home for Christmas and has no clue about where Alex might be. I might go round again and try knocking in case he's come back in the past few hours.

This is creepy. If he has been fired, why didn't anyone tell me straight away? Why didn't ALEX tell me? It's not like him to go out and not tell anyone, unless he's on some sort of drinking binge or wallowing in the misery of being sacked- but he'd never do that either. I guess he could have gone on Christmas holiday early.

I almost made a post on the company forums about it but it hit a little too close to Ed for my liking. I don't know...

BLARRRRGH

I don't understand any of this. He might be my boss but Randall has NO RIGHT to treat me and Alex this way, we've been working our arses off to go through this stuff and he and Alex looked like they were going to shoot each other all day. To say that's an uncomfortable working environment is the understatement of the year. Today was completely surreal and melodramatic, like Alex blogging to say that they've "taken" Ed and are going to take him too and he's leaving and all of this stuff. It's all getting a little too dystopian for me if I'm honest.

I think in the wake of the accident everyone's gotten a little bit confused and a little bit weirded out, and frightened. I'm certainly frightened, but I think I should take a step back...I've just got home now and I jumped about a foot into the air when my mobile rang. But it wasn't Alex, and he's not picking up his phone, and he didn't leave the office when I did, I don't know what Randall wants him for...but he is a lot more involved in the website code than I am.

Alex are you still at work? If you're online and see this, can you let me know- and can I come over?

tension

I'm at work right now and I just want to go home...or do something else.

stuff

News news news...Alex finally got a blog...essential for geeks everywhere. I go home in five days!!! I'm well excited.

Finally got the forums launched as well...now a-buzz with activity. Puzzles and such...we should deck the website out for Christmas...maybe that would be too unprofessional. I don't know if Randall is in the Christmas cheer yet...I don't know if Randall has any Christmas cheer. Maybe I should get him a gift? Like a polite, office-type gift. Like a tin of biscuits, I don't know.

good for once

I had an absolutely brilliant day yesterday, mostly because it involved a trip to the beach (yes it was freezing...did we care, no) and culminated in a Serenity viewing at my flat. One of the few times I've actually had people round...makes it feel like home! And then we all got pleasantly tipsy on wine and Jeremy fell asleep on my sofa, where he is now still snoring audibly. Plus I have the day off from work today and it's American Thanksgiving so my aunt and cousins will probably be at home and maybe I can Skype them later...we don't talk enough but I really love that side of my family.

Plus Christmas is coming and I'll have two weeks off...although I'm only going to be in England for a week so I will probably come back to work a bit early (because I'm just that sad...). Even though when I'm there I'll have to endure being fitted for a maid of honour dress and making small talk with my sister's fiance who is spending the holidays with us. And listening to my sister talk...about weddings...for hours...and hours...literally hours...When I get married I want it to be Star Wars themed and take place at the Castle. But still, seeing my family is good and HOME is good...just HOME.

As the Proclaimers sing, there is sunshine on Leith :) (not literally of course...it'll be dark by four pm)